(I wrote this last night when I was on the plane back to Dallas)
Today as I said goodbye to the medical team I worked with, it was all I could do not to cry in front of them. I am not really sure why I was a sad- was it the experience, the bond, the change in my heart, or God. This time away has given me the chance to experience the Lord in a whole different fashion. You know I have asked him to take control for so long and this experience showed me…Proved to me the greatness of allowing him to be in control. I went into this situation nervous about what I was gonna see, who I was going to work with , what medicines to use, and if I would measure up. I went by myself but not alone, I went with the greatest companion. Honestly, when I got there I felt completely calm, comfortable, safe, and surrounded by his love.
I can’t really explain the feeling I have now that I have left- I can’t describe the situation to others to give them a true recollection of my experience. Not just the sights or the people, but the feeling, the interactions, the prayers, the work that was done by something much greater than me. I feel like they have given me so much more than I could have ever given them.
Friendships were created that I think have the potential of sustaining distance.
Speaking of friendships- I am so grateful for all of you who shared you hearts and prayers for me when I was on this trip. It really makes you think, experiencing a trip like this. What is truly important? For me I realized the importance of support and showing your love for another person- something that has always been important but just more evident know more than ever. If you truly love someone, friend or lover, you support them, you care for them, you worry about them, you let them know that you love them and care for them. Relationships are important to the Haitians- it’s really all of what they have. I had so many wonderful friends old and new offer me a prayer and well wishes, but the one person I thought would be the most supportive, proved to be the person who would try diminish the importance of my trip to me- that is a really hard thing to accomplish. I guess the Lord has something better- much better!
On the other hand, I had a wonderful time relaxing in Miami. I had a very good friend come pick me up from the airport. We just hung out, relaxed, and shared the Haiti experience- he had been there about a month before me. It’s funny how you can spend time with someone, who you have not seen in a long while and pick up where you left off. The comfort. I think it will be something I remember for a very long time. A little Jack Johnson and sitting on the balcony overlooking the bay. Thank you!
It’s funny the last night at the compound they did a debriefing and told us things to expect when we return. I had my first to be expected moment….As we were driving in Miami- I was so uneasy. Someone would start to merge or what not, and I was trying to put on the passenger break. The driving in Haiti was AWFUL- there is really not any determined side of the road that people drive on- just where ever there is not bumps(yeah right, the roads are awful, esp. after the quake), people, or other cars!
I am very interested how the next couple of weeks will play out after returning.
Lord, I praise your name for protecting us, guiding us, directing us, and comforting us. You are great Lord. I pray for all of the individuals that we connected with this week, that the impact of you is a resounding voice in their head. I pray I be a witness of your love to others by expressing my experience in a way that will touch their hearts. I pray you will protect my heart as it feels slightly broken
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